Musings...

First off, since it's been a while, let me wish any readers I may still have Happy Thanksgiving, Merry Christmas, and Happy New Year.

Creatively, I've been working on several fronts lately. For one, I've been working on the script for my FullMetal Alchemist Doujinshi, 'The Shining Light Alchemist.' Still need more artists for that. I've also been working more on my Star Wars fanfics. Almost done the second story of Tales from the Fringe, then I may work on a KOTOR-era fic before working on my other prequel and the third story from TftF. Also, I've been thinking about continuing on a series of pictures called 'In Years Gone By..." focusing on characters from the series Rurouni Kenshin and where I pictured them in the years following the story's end. I've worked on a few, but I'm not wholey satisfied.

Job-wise, I'm still plugging along with my insurance business, putting out take ones and trying to get appointments. I have a pay check I still need to get from a sale I made the other week. With two appointments next week, maybe I can get another sale.

Before moving on, let me give a big hello to my best friend Scott and his fiance Tab should they ever wander through here. It was great seeing you two this week! We'll have to get together again soon!

Now, to more serious business. Last night, around 4:30 I was home here with my dad when he suffered a major heart attack. We rushed him off to the hospital and, long story short, he had a seriously clogged artery at the front of his heart, which they thankfully managed to clear. He now has a stint in his heart, is in the Cardiac Care Unit, but getting better every minute and as light hearted (no pun intended) as always. Even with all that happened, he was thinking about others. ^_^ Anyway, if you all could, try and remember him and the rest of the family in your prayers! Pray for our well being and a speedy recovery for him. There is a blessing in all of this in that, while I should have been out working, because of the miserable day, my dad suggested I come home, which I did. Had I not, my dad would have been home by himself when he had his heart attack 'cause my mom had a hair appointment at 4. It was a wonderful blessing and we were able to get him to the hospital ASAP.

In other news, I wrecked my car the other week. We had had an ice storm the night before, so instead of going to my morning meetings the next day, I waited til later in the morning in went out marketing. Travelling through back roads, I decided to look for places other agents hadn't gotten to, but instead found an icy corner and drove my car onto the side of road and put it onto a tree trunk. The bumper had to be pulled off and the radiator was speared, so all of that had to be fixed, and more. The blessing in all of this was, had I slid off a little farther down the road, I could have gone down the hill and into the Conewago Creak. To be honest, it wasn't really a day for a swim. :p

Now then, on to another subject I want to get off my chest. For those of you who know me or have been following this blog before I edited past posts, you know for several months now there's been a young lady I've been enamoured with...whom I've grown to care for quite a bit. We became quite fast friends in our time and I have many fond memories of both meeting her and our conversations. Anyway, about a month of so back, she left the island where she was helping her cousins and returned home with her parents for the time being in the South East. When this happened, we lost contact. I know longer had a number I could reach her at and, well, she's never been one to call, in all honestly, save for certain times or when returning a call. Anyway, by means of my best friend and her sister I tried to get her new number the last few weeks when I was told, before they gave it to me, that she was dating someone now. Needless to say, this was somewhat depressing news on my end. Thus I am at a crossroads, I have developed feelings for this girl, thus I have said, but if she has found someone, I will not intrude. I only wish for her to be happy. Despite this, however, I still wish to be there for her as a friend, though this will require the disemination of feelings within myself. It may be difficult, but it must be done.

The only thing is... I miss talking to her. -_- If and when I get the number, should I call her? Am I actually able to diseminate these feelings? Was I miss interperting things all along and only deluding myself in fantasy? I don't know. What I do know is that, though it is difficult at times, I must press on. If anything is meant to be, whether it be friendship, beyond, or perhaps even nothing, I must wait and see where the road, and the Lord leads. Frankly, patience is not always something I'm best at, but I might as well start developing it.

Did any of that make sense? I guess I was just spewing out for once what I've had bottled up for so long, but I needed to get it out. Anyway, prayer for wisdom and guidance would be appreciated in this area as well.


Anyway, I best be moving on. I've typed a novel already. God bless and later days, all.

~R. Zion